Saturday May 10, 2008
Today was a rather uneventful day with the exception that my dad offered to play catch with me. We were about to go out into the front yard and throw the baseball around when my brother Paul decided he also wanted to play catch with me. The three of us went out onto the front lawn and played a three-way game of catch until dinner was ready. While we were out there my brother Rich came out and decided to throw with us even though his throwing shoulder is hurting. This was the first time I have been able to throw the baseball in a while so I was a little wild especially when I tried to throw my splitter to Rich and I'm sure I'll be sore in the morning. I'm not looking forward to that. I feel so blessed to have a father who still wants to play catch with his son at age 56 and to have such a close and loving relationship with my dad and my four brothers. It was a blessing to be able to spend time with my dad, Paul, and Rich again after being away from home for four months finishing up classes at the University of South Alabama.
Sunday May 11, 2008
Today was Mother's Day. Paul drove us to church in his new Saturn Aura. Tim and Kristin came in late with Jacob and Emily. Jacob was dancing on Tim's lap during worship while Emily-being held by Kristen-moved her hands up and down in response to the music. After church me, Paul, and Rich stopped by the Latta/Long Pond Wegmans to buy cards and flowers for our mother and Kristin. We each bought a card for our mom and bought one for Kristin from us all. We each bought them flowers as well and Paul bought some for Alicia's mom. I bought my mom and Kristin each a red rose. My mom cried as she read each of our cards, exept for Rich who was proud that his card did not make her cry. We loaded up into the minivan and drove out to Frontier Field to watch the Rochester Redwings play Buffalo. Rich paid cash for the tickets. I hadn't eaten yet so my dad agreed to go get something to eat with me. He bought me a garbage plate. I ordered it with no mac salad-just homefries-and chili on top. I was able to finish the entire thing but it took me a while. The Redwings played in pink jerseys for breast cancer awareness, but lost the game four to two. My dad called his mother and we each wished her a happy mother's day. Grandpa Sova said he wanted Venicine for dinner and was able to find some in the freezer, so grandma was going to make him Venicine for Mother's Day. I told him he had better give her the biggest piece then, or maybe take her out for dessert. The rest of the time we talked baseball. My dad was saying that grandma was saying they were disgusted with "their Tigers" and refused to watch them. We all agreed that that was probably not true because grandma is a diehard fan. When we got home Rich was able to convince me and Paul to go to Carter Park to play homerun durby. There was a baseball game being played on the smaller field behind the leftfield fence so we tried to hit the ball more towards center and right field. We played with wood bats and I hit third. I hit a homerun to center field on my first swing and hit one more later in that round, also to center field. We played three more rounds but i wasn't able to hit any more homeruns. Paul won with three. He actually hit four but he hit one over the left field fence and hit the third base coach on one hop so we all agreed that homerun would not count because we wanted to discourage hitting homeruns over the left field fence. Tim had called while I was out in center field and told me he was going to come to the house and cook Chicken Pamesian, so he wanted to know how many people he would expect to have to cook for. We established that me, Paul, and Rich would be home by 7:45 for dinner. Tim ended up cooking Chicken Parmesian for our whole family except for Ronny who is away at school. The twins were there also. My parents spoon fed them their food and after they played on the floor for a while it was obvious they were tired so Tim and Kristin took them upstairs to my parents room to take a nap. We all sat down for dinner but unfortunately my stomach suddenly started bothering me and i felt like if I ate I would throw up. I felt a little better later on. Before Tim and Kristin left that night someone called grandma Anderson on the cell phone and so we passed it around and each wished her a happy Mother's Day and talked to her for a while.
Sunday June 1, 2008
Today was opening day for the Cubbies. It was a cold and windy as the Cubbies took on the Hilton Clippers in Hilton. Nuke pitched the first game and Matt Franklin AKA Buckets closed out the last inning of the 5 inning mercy win for the Cubbies. I walked my first two times up to bat and went 1 for 2 in the first game with a pop fly single that landed in right field between the second baseman and the right fielder, and a weak ground out to the third baseman. Pauly was mad because he struck out looking twice. The umpire was expanding the zone because their pitchers could not throw strikes. I was actually leading off second base and saw Pauly hold back his swing only to be punched out late by the umpire on a pitch that was way outside. In the second game Pauly pitched what turned out to be another mercy win for the Cubbies in five innings. I pitched the last inning to close out the game. I struck out the first batter swinging and walked the second batter. The third batter hit a weak ground ball to third that Pauly fielded and threw to first for the out. The last batter hit a grounder to the right side of the field that I fielded and threw underhand to TJ at first base. Jimmy Debay hit a homerun over the right field fence in the game picking up right where he left off in the Championship game against the Mets last summer. Rich had two line drive hits in the game, one to left-center field and one down the third base line. The Cubbies are 2 and 0 to start the season.
Sunday June 8, 2008
Today the Cubbies won two more games-this time against the Brockport Warriors-to remain perfect for the season. Adrian Daniels rejoined the Cubbies after taking a year off and Mike Flaherty became a Cubbie for the first time. The first game was supposed to start at 10:30am but Coach Sova called the house to ask us to pop the trunk of his car and grab the new Cubbies jerseys, the helmets, bats, etc., and we had to pick up Greg Macomber. Me, Paul, Rich, and Macomber arrived at the field at exactly 10:29am and coacher was not happy! It was all good though because the umpires apparently didn't get the memo about the early start and showed up late. The day was hot, sunny, and partly cloudy, but also windy which the Cubbies used to their advantage several times. Jeff Finucane "mushed" his first homerun over the double stacked fence to give the Cubbies a 2 to 1 lead. Corey Blair and TJ Flint would also homer in the game. The Cubbies batted 12 players in the first game so I only got up to bat 3 times. The first time I walked and the second time I hit a hard line drive to the third baseman. The third time up to bat I had to swing at a curveball because the umpire most likely would have called it strike three. I hit a weak ground ball between the pitcher and the first baseman that the pitcher fielded and threw to first for the out. In the second game Finucane hit another homerun. I had a bloop hit to left field and line drive to centerfield driving in Rich to end the game in the sixth inning with the mercy rule. Paul pitched a no hitter. There was a ball that was hit to me in left field that inning and I attempted to make a sliding catch but the ball bounced out of my mitt. I should have caught it so agreed that it should have been ruled an error, and Pauly's no-no remained intact. Mike Flaherty got his first hit as a Cubbie, a double to centerfield.
Sunday June 15, 2008
Ronny graduated from the Art Institute of Pittsburgh so my parents drove out to Pittsburgh to pick him up and bring him home. They returned home saturday night. Me, Paul, and Rich returned from watching The Happening at Tinsel Town in Gates and Ronny was home. Me and Ronny talked until 3am. I didn't plan on staying up that late but it was good to finally see Ronny again and catch up with him since I had not seen him since Christmas. I woke up at 9:30am the next morning and me, Paul, and Rich went to church in Paul's new car. It was father's day so they recognized all the fathers in the church and asked for everyone to lay hands on them and pray for them. Me, Paul, and Rich had to leave at 11:20am because our baseball game was supposed to start at noon at Aquinas. We played the Molson Canadiens and lost our first two games of the season to a team we should have destroyed on a day when everything that could have gone wrong did. In the first game a line drive was hit off of Finucane to Rich in left field. Rich came running in and got his glove on the ball but the ball popped out of his mit. The next hit was a homerun. In the first game I struck out, hit a weak pop up to the shortstop off the end of the bat, and swung at what looked like a weak attemp at a knuckleball to end the game. I shouldn't have swung at the pitch but it was too late to hold back and I ended up hitting a weak ground ball toward the first baseman. Paul pitched the second game for the Cubbies. We had the lead for the entire game just to lose it in the last inning. There were a couple of bloop hits and Paul started to lose his control. With two runners on they hit a homerun over the right-centerfield fence giving them a one run lead. In our half of the inning Mike Flagherty hit a line drive single to rightfield. TJ Flint came up and hit a shot to leftfield but it hit off the top off the fence and bounced back onto the field. Flagherty ended up at third base and TJ ended up at second base. Macomber struck out and Rich hit a fly ball to centerfield and the game was over. After the game Tim and Kristin came over to the house with Jacob and Emily. Paul and I went to the new Wegmans to shop for a card for Tim and our dad. When we got home I gave Tim and my dad my cards. Later on we all drove out to Pizza Hut. Tim and Kristin fed the twins at Pizza Hut while we waited for our food. Besides Jacob not wanting to eat the last spoonful of his food and wearing it on his face when Tim tried to sneak it into his mouth, the twins were pretty quiet for the most part and very well behaved. Everyone had a good time except for Paul. He got cramps in both of his legs and asked Tim to get him a drink of water. Tim didn't seem to have any sense of ungency in the matter and Paul had to ask dad to get him some water.
Wednesday July 2, 2008
Tim told me me to stop by his apartment after work and he would give me twenty dollars for my mission trip to Romania. After work I stopped by Tim's apartment and while I was there Tim asked me to call Paul and Rich to see if they might want to come to the apartment after work so we could all watch the Mets game together. Paul and Rich did come over after work and we were all able to play with Jacob and Emily for a little while before Tim put them to bed. Rich had volunteered to pay for the pizza because he wanted to order from Pizza Hut. After Tim put Jacob and Emily to bed we ate the pizza and watched the game. I left at 10pm because I still had to do laundry and pack for my trip. My flight was at 8am the next morning so I had to be up by at least 6am. I ended up being up all night washing clothes and packing. I didn't get done until about 5am the next morning. My mom, dad, and Ronny were in Michigan visiting grandma and grandpa Sova and rest of the Sova side of the family so Paul drove me to the airport even though he had to go to work later that morning.
DECEMBER 2009/JANUARY 2010
My tank is reading E so I'm running on fumes, clock in early in the morning, working through the afternoon, now its evening finally leaving but the day's been consumed, hit the shower, sleep six hours and emerge from my room, just to do it all again, gonna work another ten, longing for a sunday, I haven't seen the sun since then.
My heart's all dried out and covered with rust/
and i want to cry out because it hurts too much/
all this pain and my doubt, is a curse birthed in trust/
all i ask is why now, but i'll endure if I must/
i just feel so tied down, out of words, out of touch/
i wonder what if I drown, deeply submerged, spirit crushed.
TUESDAY AUGUST 3, 2010
Oh how I wish I could fast forward time, and December was here, it would be so sublime, just to see your face again, this cannot be real, I don't know what to say, but I know what I feel/
It is you I love
It is you I love
It is you I love
only you I love
SATURDAY AUGUST 7, 2010
So how many friends do you have to lose before you stop all the lies? There is no excuse/No respect for yourself so you seek abuse/So convinced its your fault so now you refuse/To let go, I don't know if you'll ever change, or remain just the same 'til the day you hang/Self induced by the noose just as you've arranged...
DECEMBER 2010
Into a world filled with torment that seems to perpetually warrant a constant cycle of pain you came and through your love and influence made a lasting positive change and it occurs to me now that you're gone just what you were to me as your words to me constantly reverberate and rewind and playback several times I know I'll never escape your grasp this is my firm belief even though you've passed into eternity and slipped into the past now that I can't hug you and say I love you and hear you verbally answer back we'll all feel the lack of your joy, smile, and laugh this devastating disaster has left desolation in its aftermath leaving a void, chasm, abyss an emptiness behind its hard to find the words while my mind is working overtime i'm scatterbrained all laughter's drained from my soul while matters hang like dark clouds, before during, and after rain its all the same the sun's rays aren't shining and i'm despising just about everything nothing's surprising, nothing's lively, there's no smiling, my expression's frozen while inside i'm always crying and can't escape the feeling i'm dying slowly it feels so real there's no use denying this deep sadness I feel inside when will I ever heal it seems unlikely nothing's right these days...